Eighth letter in my A-Z managing with a toddler and newborn series;
H for Health
I’ve always had a yo-yo immune system. I catch a cold and it’ll last week’s until I end up on steroids because I just can’t control my asthma.
After my baby was born I discussed with quite a few people, some mums, about contraception they used.
Having something permanent like the implant or coil really turned my stomach!
The pill came up, as I used to be on it, but I’m terrible at remembering to take it. Picture waking up an hour after going to bed to remember I forgot to take it.
So I opted for the injection. The depo injection. Better known in technical terms; Depo-Provera.
I had it done by the nurse at my gp surgery three days into my normal period.
After a few days my “normal period” changed to spotting. This spotting was continuous.
I think overall I had one maybe two days without nothing at all.
I read that this is normal and every should settle down. Even a different nurse for my asthma check said the same.
Somethings gone wrong
I woke one Sunday (4 weeks after having the injection) to heavier bleeding; like I was having a normal period.
Again I read that it was normal.
I really shouldn’t believe what I read. Google is not my friend in a situation like this!
Sunday night I barely slept I was up changing my sanitation towel nearly every 2 hours.
It was heavier than my after birth bleed.
Early hours of Monday morning I was in pain. So much pain. Like the worst period pain I’ve ever experienced alongside of labour. Pain that was unbearable to walk.
At the doctors that day I explained it all and she gave me a prescription to try and minimise the bleed. She said they couldn’t do an internal examination until the bleeding was managed.
She gave me a pregnancy test to do. Negative.
Oh how I was relived beyond belief! I was holding my breath for that negative.
I then had two losses; one Monday afternoon and the other around Tuesday lunchtime. Both around the size of a 50p, both only had a fraction of dark blood. Though I didn’t fully examine these as they made me feel physically sick. And I never kept them either for any professional to look at.
Back to the doctors. This time I saw someone else. He said again what was said the day before; they couldn’t examine me and continue to take the prescription and he gave me a contraceptive pill to take as well.
It is possible I could have been pregnancy when I had the Depo injection; even though I had a negative test before having it done.
It is possible I have had a miscarry.
I obviously still need to have an examination to make sure everything is okay.
Mentally I can’t get my head around any of this. The unknown is probably better than knowing; though I keep getting this niggling thought every now and then that I may have had a miscarry. Been completely unaware of being pregnant. No signs or symptoms. And (now) two negative tests; could it have been too early to detect?
I won’t be going back for another shot of the Depo injection. It’s completely put me off. Along with the non stop spotting, my life feels like I haven’t got me back fully since having my baby.
I am determined to be me again. Me the mother of two amazing babies.